10oct'05

STORY-10th oct '05
[JUX updATed]

first day of the week.....
haiz....
yesterday watch "wo he jiang shi you ke yua hui" and oso keep writing abt moi STORIES
at last finish le... can get every thing out of moi heart now....

i ended moi love le..... donno its a good thingy or bad.... but at least now can concentrate on moi studies more le.... rather then always thin abt him....

one problum jux ended and another came right away le.... haiz...
jux tok to moi mmmi..... abt moi studies thing de... abt going to poly or jc....
haiz.... realli feel so stress now sia..... going to brust out crying le..... hiaz...
donno where i should go....
if go ploy.... and moi bro will go oso ba... i think.... but then the expanese will be veri high wat....
haiz.... then if go JC, i scard i cannot cope in there oso..... by once go jc le hav to go "university" oso haiz... no money again.... hiaz.... realli hiaz.... i am not from a wealthy family lo..... can consider poor oso la....
and is onli moi mother working now onli.... donno where tat damm person [relate to father] go to
moi relative especially moi "aunt" sure wan mi to go "university" de....
feeling of pressure moi shoulder now sia... hiaz....
cause i am the onli girl in moi family.....
both moi brothers..... hiaz... [no comments]
and now moi whole family depend on mi sia....
quoted from moi anut" let ur mother at least hab something to be proud of.... at least she can telll everyone tat she has her onli daughter tat manage to go to "university" let her hab something to be proud of..."

hiaz.... realli donno wat to do.....

i wan to make moi mummy proud.... but i am scard
*sob*sob*sob*sob*sob*

[LinG]